Peace In The Midst of Chaos

My husband started cardio rehab. It’s an involved three-month process with classes, teachings, daily blood sugar and blood pressure checks and an individualized exercise program. Cardiologists, nutritionists, scientific exercise professionals and nurses teach the classes.

With everything going on with hearts, health, my daughter starting grad school, birthdays, a friend’s illness, the death of a pet, a litter of kittens, weight loss, exercise programs, a nasty arthritis flare and endless appointments, I’ve struggled to find time to write.

I let go of having to write at my desk. I now write in my car, kitchen, garage, on my back-porch but mostly in waiting rooms. I record thoughts and ideas when I’m walking.

In the past I never felt productive unless I was writing at my desk and behind a door–preferably a locked one. And the room had to be the right temperature, tea and cookies on the right side of my desk, my cell phone on the left and a cat on my lap. I no longer care. It’s actually been freeing. I find myself staying in the role of writer throughout the day.

My husband and I decided I did not need to be present for the workout aspect. After the classes I left to find a quiet area so I could write. I discovered a little room with a sliding frosted glass door, a long empty desk and floor to ceiling windows that looked out over the pink flowering trees. I had two hours to myself. I was surrounded by beauty, stillness and words. I experienced it like an unexpected gift–it was exactly what I needed. I plan on using it as my office for the next three months. I don’t know if the room will eventually be claimed but for now it’s my retreat.


I am currently engaged with an ongoing search as to how to stay sane under this current administration. Learning, expanding and taking care of myself seem to help. The following two things are not connected to my blog post in anyway but I wanted to share them.

I listened to a Podcast today by Julie Brown Yau (#91) while working out. (I am learning to manage my time).  Anyway—I thought maybe someone out there might find it helpful. I know I did. It’s about rage and trauma and how to transform energies for healing.

I also liked this article on social justice. It is packed full of insight. It helped me deepen my understanding of issues I am currently interested in.



One thought on “Peace In The Midst of Chaos

  1. Your plate is very full with stress. I applaud you for finding a place of peace at the hospital. I hope it remains so.


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